Drinking

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I drink
To avoid my own reactions,
My own emotions.
Not because I care about you…
Believe me,
I gave that up
Like a bad habit,
Like drinking.
Not to spare you my anger,
My wrath,
But somehow to save myself
To spare myself
From unpleasant situations
That I feel incapable of dealing with.

Fuck!
This isn’t working.

21 comments

  1. Jayne

    oh but it is. The more uncomfortable something is, the more irritated you CAN become and that’s how change starts. Isn’t that what got us from one situation to another for the last year? Or was it just horniness??!

  2. Theo Black

    Yeah, you can’t really drink your troubles away. They just get drunk along with you, but they wake up with their own hangovers.

    • pivoine68

      I think they multiply while I’m idly sipping white wine. I would like to be the odd exception…..I guess not.

      Bisous My ThΓ©o,
      Dawn, comfortably numb

  3. Dawn D

    I think it’s probably better for your health to deal with the situations that you don’t want to deal with, but then be able to live your life fully, feeling everything in it, rather than to keep drinking to forget about them and live your life (or is it go through it) comfortably numb… I hope you can address the anger and the wrath soon. That’s often a first step πŸ™‚
    And I agree with Jayne and with Theo. I think. I’m a bit under the weather. It’s possible I completely misunderstood them πŸ˜‰

    God, that bathtub sounds tempting! Can I come too? πŸ˜‰

    Big hugs my Dawn. et des bises too πŸ™‚
    Dawn (kicking your butt for you to get out of there!).

      • Dawn D

        I didn’t say I was pleasantly asleep. I have been drifting in and out of sleep, with cold sweats and feeling unwell… not sure you want THAT! πŸ˜‰

      • Dawn D

        I don’t think it’s the flu. I think it’s a throat infection. Again. Now the question is whether it grants some antibiotics… The doctor should be able to tell tomorrow πŸ™‚
        I have been drinking eta with honey and some essential oils mixed in. Hopefully I feel better tomorrow. But for now, I’ll just stay in bed and not do much 😦

        Thanks for the get well Bises πŸ™‚
        I don’t know if I should send you any back, I wouldn’t want you to catch whatever I have πŸ˜‰

        Dawn

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