December 28, 2012

Heimlich

Sometimes sorrow seeps out of the seams of my heart, up my wind pipe and into the back of my throat.

I am strangling on my own grief. You can see me turning 50 shades of violet

and I just wish that you would move behind me,

pass your arms around my chest.

Your strong fists

pumping my sternum
in a surprising taking of action.
In a valiant heroic geste.

Sending that condensed form of unhappiness, black and hard like a hockey puck out of me, expelled from my body, sent careening through the air until like a bullet it would be lodged in a sturdy ceiling beam

where a person could yearn to hang himself.

20 comments

December 28, 2012 - 08:10 Fatal

What deep sorrow… Je t’aime, my sweet.

Xoxo

December 28, 2012 - 08:26 pivoine68

It’s all over now. Je t’aime aussi!

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December 28, 2012 - 08:19 filledandfooled

Stunning imagery. Heavy, sad, worrisome. Please, even if only to a small degree, I hope that writing this out has heimliched some of that dark ball of sadness out. Insofar you won’t dream of any sturdy ceiling beams being used for anything but holding the roof or floor above! (Are you okay? Many hugs Dawn)

December 28, 2012 - 08:30 pivoine68

Sorry about that! I wrote this a while back, I like the words but the feelings have gone elsewhere. (and I’m glad) Thanks for your concern…I’m quite melodramatic at times.

Bisous,
Dawn

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- December 28, 2012 - 14:59 Nick
  
  I’m with Filled on this. So glad it is something elegant but sad from a past life, not with you any more.
- December 29, 2012 - 18:52 pivoine68
  
  Yeah, so am I. Thanks Mister!
  
  Bises,
  Dawn
- December 28, 2012 - 16:12 filledandfooled
  
  Oh I am so glad to wake up to this! Big heaving sighs of relief. Xxxooo,
  G
- December 29, 2012 - 18:47 pivoine68
  
  xoxox
  
  D 🙂

December 28, 2012 - 15:18 Accidental Masturbator

I think you should not want him to move behind you for a Heimlich. The arms around your chest should have another purpose. And the fists. It should not be your sternum that is pumped.

December 29, 2012 - 18:50 pivoine68

(You have a point there!) There is most certainly a strange correlation between the two movements. Cathartic Gymnastics.

Pumping Bisous,
Dawn

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December 28, 2012 - 16:19 Tin Woman

Lovely and tragic, ma belle. Remember you are loved.

December 29, 2012 - 18:46 pivoine68

You are loved too my friend. Thank you for always reminding me!

Bisous,
Dawn

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December 28, 2012 - 16:57 Hyacinth

I like this because its beautiful, but dislike it because I don’t want you to hurt so. I want you to feel ribbons of sunshine and rainbows in your hair and on your skin. xx Hy