This is not an official post, just some things I feel like writing for the hell of it. I have just realized that when I post nothing, no one comes to play at my place. It’s lonely. When my top post topics have included desire, sex, yeah…masturbation, I am not really certain that more people actually read them. (In my opinion, that is strange.) Today, the most popular topics I’ve written about ever here on Word Press are need, self-hatred, alcoholism and drinking. (just a second, I need to fill my glass with self-hatred.) I’m back. My all-time least favorite search terms are undoubtedly “french girla learn masturbation,” “sex pig,” and “send me a whore.” When I read them here I wanted to quit writing indefinitely. I didn’t. The search terms I loved are, “in panties gentle touch sharing pleasure,” (how ADORABLE is that?) “girl slyly masturbating,” and “spanked under the panties.” I imagine someone playful and sensitive and sexy typing those words and it makes me gloat a little. I gloat easily. When I first started blogging, I thought the number of clicks I had received each represented a person. When I had ten clicks, my blog address was on Facebook and I was thinking, “Hmmm, who are those ten people?” I am always pleasantly surprised and sometimes startled that anyone takes the time to read what I’ve written in the first place.
Pivoine68 was supposed to be a blog about relationships, about people and how they interact with each other, but somehow I tend to only write about myself. I’m quite selfish I guess. I wanted to write about beauty but I am usually drawn to darker aspects of existence. I enjoy writing about sex but I seems to write more frequently about masturabation. (that should be telling me something about my writing and my life for that matter.) I have made beautiful friends here. I wasn’t expecting that. I don’t know if my blog buddies write fact or fiction, but then again, it doesn’t matter. Writing is therapeutic. It helps the writer and helps the reader as well. It certainly helps me.
Just wanted to say thank you for. ..well, everything.