Wow! On February 1st 96 people took the time to read my poem. I find that disturbing really. I’m new at this…I didn’t really think that more than a handful of friends on Facebook would actually read what I am writing. I would be less surprised if the title of my poem had been, “The Hidden Pleasures of Fist-Fucking” or something catchy like that but it was just “Nod (näd)” a gesture of approval. Not too arousing or anything. I’ve noticed that my Facebook readers are dwindling. Does this mean my “Close Friends” are not interested in what I have to say? I was mildly horrified by a “search terms engine” that said, “french girl learns masturbation” which immediately made my think of a surly, sweaty guy with hairy knuckles, one hand on the mouse, the other shoved down his pants. That isn’t really what I’m looking for. I’m not even French and was a girl but am now quite a bit older than that. Anyway, the whole thing was making me question my motives for writing about this. I’m starting to feel like I have to write in private because I’m pretty sure my husband would not appreciate my candor. At all. The French are very private people.
I was on the phone with my Dad last night (he is Family on Facebook) and although I realize that if you post something on there to only a certain group, all the other people can see it anyways, I didn’t think anyone was paying attention. He mentioned my last poem which he had read (OMG!) and then asked if I was OK. As if maybe that post was a sign that I truly gone over the edge. I suppose that at 43 a person should be grown-up enough to not need their parents approval…but, I guess I’m not all that grown-up. Which made me start thinking I don’t really want him or loads of other people in my family to read my blog. So maybe I’ll take it off Facebook all together. Or create a page. I really do want to become rich and famous though! I heard that Julia Childs was 50 when she published her first cookbook. Maybe it’s not too late for me to become a literary icon. LOL
Oh, one more thing. I have been pleasantly surprised to make new friends through blogging. I feel sort of like I have been adopted by a reassuring pair of Fairy Godparents. I don’t really know you but I think about, worry about you etc. and I am finding that sharing with others reciprocally is really beneficial for me. I hope I can be helpful to others as well. (You know who you are!)